Has it really been 3 months since your birth day? It feels right and fast all at the same time. Our little family has definetly adjusted to our new way of life. It is beginning to feel farther and farther away since I did not know a time that you were with me, Benjamin and Caleb. I am growing so in love with you as each day passes.
You both are now at a much different place than you were after you were born. We can hold conversations now. You are content when you are away from me for longer periods of time. We are all sleeping better! And you both have so much personality! It is so fun observing your similarities and differences, even at this young age.
Benjamin
My sweet Ben. You are a fierce little one! You are so content and happy and love to smile and coo! But when you are mad, you go from 0 to 60 in milliseconds. I can already tell you will be a determined little boy! I believe you will be a leader with much verocity and passion. You also love people! You look at me until you catch my eye, then give me the biggest smile. You reach for your brother's hands when you are nursing. And you love to talk with Emalyn and Kendra; cooing and getting very excited. I can tell you have a lot to say and perhaps wished your body was more developed because of the way you grunt and growl. I'm sure you wish you could just start talking now! You are also a very strong little boy, pushing off of things with your legs. Ben, you make me happy! I love watching you and loving you. I pray you will know Jesus as your personal savior. I believe together, you and Him, will move mountains!
Caleb
My charming Caleb. You are a gentle spirit. Your cries strike my heart every time. I want to hold you and make everything right when I hear you. You are very observant! You look around this big world with huge eyes, soaking it all in. Sometimes I wonder exactly what you must be thinking with everything you see! I know you are excited when you start stomping your foot and making loud noises. You also love to coo and smile at me! And your sisters adore you! I think you will be gracious and helpful to those around you. You love colors and pictures. I can tell you love Benjamin very much. When he's upset, it's not long until you are upset with him. I believe, one day, you will be a good friend and good listener to so many. You will laugh and cry and sympathize with others. You will be there for them when life is rough. That is a wonderful thing to know how to "feel" and help others to do the same in this world that can be cold and broken in so many ways. I love you and love watching you grow! Jesus loves people just like you. I pray you too will know Jesus as your personal savior.
Long Days, Short Years
I can't believe it has been 3 months with the boys, just like I can't believe I'll have a kindergartner in August. The days are long but man are the years flying!
I'm amazed at how demanding these young motherhood years can be. No one tells you just what to expect. And I'm not really sure it would ever be possible to be able to share exactly what it's like to a new mom-to-be. She has to experience it her way, on her terms, with her very own child. Motherhood is something I always wanted but I never knew how tough and rewarding it is and continues to be. I wouldn't change it! I am thankful that these precious gems have been entrusted to us and thankful I know the God who will help us raise them well. I have days when I get overwhelmed thinking about all of my kids' futures and the long journeys we all have ahead but it's about the moment right now, this day. I need today and just today to see the love growing in our family.
My littles are the grace I need, the joy I smile over and the love that spills out all over this house. That must be how God loves and sees me as His child. To God be the glory in my motherhood!
