The Hour Is Near
It's hard to believe I am in the final weeks of carrying our twin boys! What a journey it has been learning about twin pregnancy, twin delivery, raising twins and everything else in between! I still find myself in awe that God gave us two little blessings at the same time! The last few years our family has experienced so many obstacles and yet so much faithful and timely provision by our Lord. This pregnancy has only been a confirmation to me that God will continue to take care of our family. My love and joy for Christ has increased daily! It may not feel like it in the day to day of raising little humans and taking care of their needs, but as I tend to my children I see how much more God tends to my needs and cares for me.
Motherhood is such a gift and such a hard road all at the same time. Every day is a chance for me to depend further on Christ as Joel and I raise our littles and show them who Jesus is!
Love Multiplies
Yup, we're doubling our offspring two-fold! And though that may sound terrifying (and trust me, I have my moments!), it is a gift! Joel and I have always had the capacity to love children and desire a larger (or what our culture would consider large) family. I have found amazing support and encouragement from friends, family and other multiples mommies. It's truly incredible how God designs twins! He has also given us two beautiful daughters who are beyond excited to have two little brothers to care for. It was this time a year ago, that my oldest daughter, Emalyn, informed me she had begun asking Jesus for a brother. On several occasions she told me (and others outside our home!) about this prayer she was praying and that Jesus always answered "Yes!" I thought it was very sweet that she was so in tune with prayer and loving Jesus. Once we found out we were having TWIN BOYS we reminded Emi of her prayer. She was beside herself that God did answer her prayer, not just for one brother, but she was getting two! It's amazing to witness the journey God has given our family with all 4 of these little blessings.
Peace
"He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters. He restores my soul..." These words are life-giving. In the final weeks of pregnancy transitioning to motherhood can be a very scary and anxious time. There can be so many unknowns! The birthing process is something truly beautiful, but it is also a very mental and emotional obstacle that every woman has to conquer on her own. In her own way. Our husbands, like mine, are amazing supporters and encouragers, but it comes down to the mother herself that must labor and deliver this precious gift. It's very sobering. I have found myself excited to meet my boys and at the same time frustrated I don't get to see them until I go through all the pain of getting them here. The pain is worth it because I love these boys! Just as Jesus loved us so much to endure pain on the cross and bring us the gift of eternal life!
Birth is truly Gods mysterious design. He is in control. He brings restoration to our souls, even in these final moments of a woman becoming a mother. It's a beauty no human being could dream up. It's truly divine! And so this verse reminds me that He is leading me. My future, the boys and our family are all in His sovereignty and I need these quiet pastures. I need His comfort. I'm thankful for my shepherd!
My Boys
You both will be here soon! I feel you every day moving! Sometimes I'm pretty sure one of you have woken up the other to play. God has protected all 3 of us on this journey and for that I am truly thankful! You are His precious gift that He is entrusting to your father and I. You have two VERY excited big sisters who cannot wait to meet you! They have big plans to teach you so many different things and how to take care of you. We have a beautiful home filled with love, fun, dance parties, adventures, learning and most importantly the love of Jesus. You will love it! It's going to be fantastic growing our family together! I pray for you too. I've never raised boys before, so I feel a bit intimidated. But I see your father and hope you will be like him one day, but in your own, unique way. I pray that you will know Jesus early in life as your Saviour. I pray you both will discover your own unique gifts and talents that you can use to impact this world in great ways! I pray also that you will be kind, passionate, tender, bold, courageous, fierce, compassionate, generous, gentle, and loving men in a broken world. I pray also that you will learn how to love your sisters and treat them well so that some day you will make amazing husbands and fathers.
I know God has great plans for both of you! Your father and I can't wait to watch you grow. See you both soon!
Love, Mom
